2023: Happy New Year! (I may be leaving)

Hello everyone.

Happy New Year, the 2023rd one! In case you're reading it years later.

I didn't give you all my timely and proper congratulations due to the fact that I got sick. If anyone remembers me congratulating you on the Discord server; I mentioned "don't get flu, don't get covid"? Yeah, that happened, my whole family and me got sick.

All of that fever and, let's be honest, the last few years made me realize that I cannot continue going on with modding like I used to; the updates are considerably less frequent as you might have noticed.

After the fever(s) and the general "new way of life" (post-covid, post-invasions and everything <--- by the way, I can go to jail for that... )

...I simply cannot afford to spend more time at my PC doing modding of all things like I used to before. Modding is a very ungrateful sort of hobby one can have. It takes incredible amounts of time, and energy, and effort, and skill to learn to make something new. Nowadays, I barely have time to sit down and clear my head.

And to be completely honest with you, most modding communities are not something I want to be part of anymore. When I visit those communities today it's like Twitter with a focus on gaming. With catchy phrases\movements, porn, politics, nasty tongues, the hosting server owners wanting to own my data and to control my content. And I don't want that in my life.

I'm barely on nexusmods. I'm not on social media. I've been around the modding community for 10+ years now, and people don't know me. That's fine, it didn't bother me. Now it does, after so many things have changed, after I've set the bar for myself so high in presentation and other things, because I don't even get the dophamine rush of "awww, they like my stuff and they know it's me."

I definitely am experinecing a burnout from this overgrown hobby of mine.

When I write that you can feed my cat with your donations, that's not a lie. The money I'm currently making on Boosty* literally goes to buy cat food:

Before the sanctions, my generous patrons (I remember every one of you, even though my Patreon page is hidden), for a time, actually paid my bills and bought *me* food and clothing and medicine because I didn't have other means of income at the time. I am very grateful and I will never forget that. That moment could've been a completely miserable existence, and it wasn't, thanks to you.

Now I'd like to step back from it all, at least for a while, because I literally can't afford it; people don't want to subscribe to Boosty instead of Patreon and I still have no way of using Patreon as of now. I'll let you know if anything changes..

In the meanwhile, here's what it means for you:

1. I'm finishing the two-three remaning things I owe (if you know, you know).
2. I'm releasing certain things I had in my "storage" out to the public and some extra things to my Boosty page, and some things... to nexus. Small things. I'm thinking DA:O content currently up and those (currently unreleased) Fallout: New Vegas textures. Because *those communities* are 90% awesome and I would like to share.
3. That's it. After that, for all I know, there will be no content from me for months/years/etc - pretty much same as now. I'll keep all of the pages up, including this website. I'll keep the Boosty page running, but there will be no usual scheduled polls/votes, planned releases/week-early access schedule, I might not reply to you, etc.

I won't accept requests and basically, if I publish something, it will be something I want. Expect Oblivion textures, *maybe*? All things will be posted on Boosty first, and if I get around publishing them here or someplace else, I'm not sure *when* that'll happen. Like I said - no schedules.

The Boosty page will help to keep the cloud storage paid for so even if I'm out of the modding scene completely you can still download my content; I'll need the money to pay for it all. If there are people willing to spare a coin to keep up my content, my website and this khajiit fed:

... then I can't say no.

That said, you'll have even less incentive to subscribe to my Boosty page - and that's fine!

I'll keep the Discord server up because the people there are pretty awesome. It would be a shame if I lost you all.

Happy New Year (past) and holidays (past), and let's hope this new year is better than the last. Didn't start great for me, that's for sure.

o/

*Boosty is a russian Patreon alternative